Here We Go Again

With our second round of IVF growing near, I continue to be a bag of mixed emotions.

Hopeful. Scared. Nervous. Worried. Excited. Motivated.  Did I say SCARED?!

I struggle just writing this to come up with exactly how I'm feeling.

My head is spinning with thoughts.

But none-the-less, I must put on my "big girl panties," and get ready for

showtime.  I start the actual IVF stim injections on Dec 28th.

But my RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist) switched a couple of things

up with this cycle, so I technically start injections on Monday.

Our goal for this cycle has two main focuses:

1) Prevent any lead follicles

2) Go all out on stims to get the most possible mature eggs

So the injections that I start next Monday are an antagonist medication that

will be administered the last 4 days while on birth control in hopes that it

will completely suppress my ovaries and follicles,
and prevent any lead follicles like last time.

I have a scan next Wednesday morning to see if it has done the job.

Fingers crossed!

Then as long as the scan report is all good, I will start injections 4 days later.

And like I said, we want lots and lots of mature eggs at retrieval time.

So I am doing a super high dose of Follistim.

We are again doing a "freeze all" cycle in order to do genetic testing.

And will then have a frozen embryo transfer several weeks later.

 We have been beyond blessed with the kind-heartedness of those around us.

We were very fortunate to have all of our Follistim and Menopur donated

to us this cycle.  And there is a chance that the remaining med, Ganirelix,

will also be donated.  I am absolutely blown away with peoples generosity.

With our benefits being used up after this cycle, I know that this will likely be our

last cycle. And this adds even more pressure and stress.

I truly try not to think about it, but how can I not?!

In the end I know that I will have done everything I could have done

to have the best possible outcome.

And hopefully 2015 will finally let us hear the pitter-patter of little feet in our house.