Heartbroken

One Monday, October 20th, we had our first frozen embryo transfer.  

We transferred one "normal" hatching embryo.

And the two week wait began.

I did everything to get this little one to implant;

*Acupuncture

*Moxa Stick

*Pineapple Core

*Brazil Nuts

*Warm foods and fluids

*Socks

*Pomegranate Juice

But it is with a heavy heart that I have to report that

this little one did not stick with us.

 It just sucks. 

Plain and simple.

I do not understand why this is happening to us.

Why do we have to be put through such a struggle

just to have ONE baby?

J & I want nothing more then to start a family.

We are left shaking our heads, trying

hard to accept the words "God has a plan" or

"It'll happen when the time is right."

Right now, those words are actually hurtful.

I don't understand why this path is being made so difficult for us.
I am a faithful person, but right now I just can't understand
why God is purposefully causing us so much heartache.

We are good people.

We are stable people.

So why is this so hard?

Why? Why? Why?