It's Going to be OK

At the early stages of our infertility I would often find myself having a difficult time being happy.  Month after month after month of failures was very hard and trying.  There were days that it took all of my energy to just face the world.

I was mad, hurt, sad, numb inside....and questioned many times; "Why me?"  Often wishing we hadn't taken the more responsible route of waiting until we were financially ready for kids.  I was grieving the loss of naturally being able to have a child.  While there is now amazing technology to help couples like us for which I am truly grateful for, I still had lost the most sacred ability that has been given to women 

Then a few weeks ago, on one of my lowest days, I received a text from one of my cousins with an article linked.  The articles message really struck a cord with me, “It’s going to be okay. You’re going to be okay.” (click HERE for the article) It caused a light switch to flip and I no longer wanted to feel sorry for myself.  I convinced J that I needed to start telling people about what was going on.  I no longer wanted to feel ashamed about our situation.  I needed to talk openly so that I could start the healing process. 

We told our families and many friends.  I started reading tons of books and online articles.   I joined a forum for those going through IVF.  I found a new love for meditation.  And have gotten TONS of support.  We've received notes of inspiration and encouragement. I have found that talking openly about our IVF journey has become very therapeutic.

A few other articles that have been very positive for me and taught me "No More Whispers."

*This Woman Has a Secret

*Bobbie Thomas: No more whispers, I'm doing IVF and proud of it

*Savannah Guthrie: 'Love and prayers' to those dealing with infertility 

Then slowly but surely, my smile returned. 

It's going to be ok.
I'm going to be ok.

:)