Day 6 Update

 Tuesday, September 23rd

Yet another day of not being able to focus on anything.  My mind was definitely elsewhere.

I had spent the last 12 hours with my fingers crossed, and sending happy thoughts

and prayers to our growing embryos.  The morning seemed to drag on forever.

I felt each tick of the second hand on the clock on our mantel. 

At 12:42pm my phone flashed up a call from SRM.

I nervously answered, only to hear my RE's voice on the other end.

My heart sank.

I knew before she even spoke another word that this was not going to be good news.

She went on to say that of the 6, only 2 had made it to testing and freeze...

but that they are "beautiful and already hatching."

My mind went fuzzy and I seemed to struggle with each word out of my mouth.

She knew our plan was to do another cycle if we ended with 2 or less blasts.

So we left it that I would call when my next menstrual cycle started.

I immediately broke down

After gaining composure...and once I could breath again...I called J.

Once again he was filled with questions and I really wasn't in the mood.

I wanted a miracle.

I didn't want to have to spend thousands again on another cycle.

I felt like such a failure.

He obliged, stopped asking questions and just said, "I love you."

I hung up and again starting crying uncontrollably.

After about 10 minutes J called back.  Now that it had a little time to set in,

I was able to talk.  He wanted to know if we still had options

with these two embryos.  I didn't know and gave him our RE's number.

Several minutes later, he called back and said,

"We are down, but not out,"

and that we would talk more when he got home from work.

Should we take a gamble on these two little embryos?

One round of PGS testing costs $2700 and it doesn't matter if you test

1 embryo or 8, the cost is the same.

Genetic testing, or PGS, does an analysis on the chromosomes.

It makes sure that all 46 chromosomes are paired up nice and neat.

It eliminates any embryos that are deemed "abnormal," including trisomy 21.

At my age, I have about a 45-50% chance of having a normal embryo

so PGS was definitely something we wanted to do.

If an abnormal embryo were to be transferred it would either

end in a miscarriage or a child with Down Syndrome.

So what would you do if you were in this position?

 

After J got home from work we had dinner and then had a long talk.

He drew it all out, which was good because we are both very visual people.

And in the end we both thought it made the most sense to roll the dice.

J emailed our RE and nurse to let them know that we wanted to

go ahead and have the samples tested.

It would take 3-4 days for the results to come back.

So the waiting game continues.....